My mind holds me captive and the thoughts of you just revolve around in my head. Not a moment of peace or reprieve to be had all day.
You are there when I wake up, when I brush my teeth, when I eat my cornflakes.
You are there when I get dressed and when I go to work.
You are there as I have my coffee and I eat lunch.
You are there to prove me wrong when I finally think I am too tired to think of you.
Truth be you are everywhere and I am just so tired of trying to think of something else.
I have tried every little thing and nothing works.
I have tried meditation but my mind doesn´t seem to quiet enough to shut you out.
I have tried working to exhaustion and even then when I think all my strength is gone it seems I always have enough left to think of you.
I have tried erasing every reminder I have and now all I see are ghost images where your pictures and letters used to be pinned to the wall.
Erasing your phone number from my phone didn’t work cause I see the numbers floating in front of my eyes.
Every song I somehow relate to you, even the ones I never heard with you cause I keep thinking if you would love or hate the one I am listening to.
I look at the stars and see you eyes and even when I close mine you are there in my dreams.
I am at the end of my rope and fear I will soon go mad. Tell me, please, how to forget you.
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